Where is this person? I'd like to know.
I've already mentioned how I struggle with winter, and this year it seems like my mental toughness/motivation is suffering as well. I don't even feel like that person who completed an Ironman or even the person who ran a sub-4 hour marathon.
I know I was the person who did those things, but I'm wondering if I still am that person.
I find myself questioning if I am still capable of running a fast marathon time, or if I am going to be able to complete my 50K in May, or if I am going to be able to finish another Ironman.
Deep down inside, I know that I am capable of doing all of those things, and more (I'm even contemplating a 50 miler in November). But for some reason, my mental toughness is severely lacking right now.
I put off running until tomorrow and rode on the trainer tonight instead. At least I did something, I could just be skipping workouts completely. I could have gone for a run, Mike and I were planning on it, but then I got home and I just let my mind get the best of me. It wasn't even that bad outside, alright fine it was 18 degrees and wherever we ended up running would have been snow-covered but at least the sun was shining.
Part of my lack of motivation (even though I am getting all of my run workouts, at least one swim and bike workout and two strength workouts done) is the fact that we don't have any races until March 29th. It just seems so far away and makes winter feel like it is never-ending.
The good news? I still LOVE swimming, biking and running. It is still who I am. I know that this sport, just like life, comes with ups, downs, plateaus and everything in between.