As an adult, you don't get to play make believe as often. However, during this first week of Ironman training that's exactly what I feel like I am doing.
I'm not sure if it is because our training plan is 24-weeks long or if I really just don't feel like I am training for an IRONMAN, but for whatever reason it doesn't feel real.
My lovely clashing running outfit!
During our 5 mile run on Tuesday, I kept forgetting that I was training for an Ironman. Maybe it is because our workouts are so "short" (for us) right now. I have to keep reminding myself that I am actually training for something, a big something.
I identify as a triathlete, so that isn't the issue. I guess I just feel like a kid who is playing make believe at triathlon, specifically Ironman training (this reminds me of a photo I've seen that says, "no one ever says let's play triathlon").
Taking pictures of myself in the locker room
I didn't have this problem while training for Musselman, but I think that the fact that we overlapped training for the Cleveland Marathon and that it was our first 70.3 made it feel more real.
Maybe it's because this has been a dream of mine for 3 years and now I am less than 6 months away from actually tackling it. Maybe it's my mind's way of protecting me from huge, dramatic emotions so early on in Ironman training.
I know that eventually I will feel like I am training for an Ironman, it will hit me, it will get REAL. I will cry, I will "quit" triathlon, I will feel like I can't do it. I will also celebrate any successes that I have during training, those hard workouts that feel almost impossible that I CRUSH.
For now, I'll continue to play make believe and hope that sometime soon I feel like this is actually the final step toward 140.6.