Thursday, March 13, 2014

Playing Make Believe

When I was a kid playing make believe was a big part of my childhood. Whether with my friends or my brother, we would often imagine these different scenarios and play make believe. I remember one time when my friend and I were playing in the snow and we were pretending to be some sort of burrowing animal, I don't even remember why, ha. Also, playing cops and robbers was a HUGE part of recess at my elementary school.

As an adult, you don't get to play make believe as often. However, during this first week of Ironman training that's exactly what I feel like I am doing.

I'm not sure if it is because our training plan is 24-weeks long or if I really just don't feel like I am training for an IRONMAN, but for whatever reason it doesn't feel real.

My lovely clashing running outfit!

During our 5 mile run on Tuesday, I kept forgetting that I was training for an Ironman. Maybe it is because our workouts are so "short" (for us) right now. I have to keep reminding myself that I am actually training for something, a big something.

I identify as a triathlete, so that isn't the issue. I guess I just feel like a kid who is playing make believe at triathlon, specifically Ironman training (this reminds me of a photo I've seen that says, "no one ever says let's play triathlon").

 Taking pictures of myself in the locker room

I didn't have this problem while training for Musselman, but I think that the fact that we overlapped training for the Cleveland Marathon and that it was our first 70.3 made it feel more real.

Maybe it's because this has been a dream of mine for 3 years and now I am less than 6 months away from actually tackling it. Maybe it's my mind's way of protecting me from huge, dramatic emotions so early on in Ironman training.

I know that eventually I will feel like I am training for an Ironman, it will hit me, it will get REAL. I will cry, I will "quit" triathlon, I will feel like I can't do it. I will also celebrate any successes that I have during training, those hard workouts that feel almost impossible that I CRUSH.

For now, I'll continue to play make believe and hope that sometime soon I feel like this is actually the final step toward 140.6.

12 comments:

  1. While I've never trained for an ironman.....I'm positive soon the training is going to hit you! But you will be amazing. I know it.

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  2. Oh girl. I feel the same way right now! I'm glad we'll sorta be on this journey together. I already got my first real saddle sore. It was dumb. ;)

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  3. Haha! That made me laugh! Luckily, I haven't gotten one of those yet!

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  4. I feel like this is a great analogy for any big event, especially one that takes a lot of hard work and dedication to get to! You will wake up and find yourself at the start line ready to go ;-)

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  5. Ekkk, here we go! It seems like the long-course athletes are ramping up their training within the next few weeks. You've got this!

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  6. That's really interesting, I guess I never thought about that with my first marathon which is my biggest endurance event so far. I think i was already doing so much it just kind of happened... I'm pretty sure if I do this HIM...I'll know it :)

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  7. You are awesome, and you'll dominate this journey.

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  8. I am so excited for your training... I can't imagine that it won't kick in soon! You'll be doing all star workouts in no time. Actually, who am I kidding? You always rock the workouts!

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  9. I think it will feel mostly like a dream until you cross the finish line. I mean, I'm sure there will be some crazy workouts that feel legit, but I always feel like it doesn't quite sink in until it's over. Also, I get to play make believe every single day. Best job ever. ;)

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  10. I bet it feels like a dream because you're so prepared and such a rockstar that you're just ready! I am seriously so excited for you. You are going to accomplish something that very few do, and I can't wait to watch it all unfold!

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