This is where I was last year at this time
Also, we're only 6 months away from Ironman Louisville.
In 6 months and 3 days, I will be jumping into the Ohio River and starting an all day adventure. An adventure that will take me between 14 to 17 hours to complete. An adventure that not many people actually attempt, let alone finish.
Why would I want to attempt something that is going to put me in so much pain that I won't even know if I will make it to the finish line?
I know that there will be times when I question my sanity, curse myself for thinking that doing an Ironman was a good idea and want to quit. But, I won't. I won't quit, because that's not what I do.
Somewhere out on the run course of Musselman
During our 70.3, the only time that I felt like not moving anymore in the entire 7 hours that I was out there in the unrelenting heat and sun was the last mile. The LAST mile of a 70.3 mile race. Sure, I was thinking that I was so dumb for being out there, wondering why I put myself through such pain and for what?
What do I get out of doing these kinds of things?
Quite a lot actually. The pain reminds me that I am alive. It reminds me of what I am capable of and how much work I put into what I am trying to accomplish.
Saying hi to Miss Kiva, Sarah and Mark's dog
Even though I was in pain and could only think "one foot in front of the other" as I dumped bottle after bottle of water on myself in a feeble attempt to actually cool down during our 70.3 (all while doing horrible math to calculate how much time I had left out there), I never thought about quitting. Even though I might have been a bit dehydrated and slightly delirious toward the end (it took me a few minutes to recognize Sarah and Mark), my sights were only on that finish line.
I think the same thing will happen at Ironman Louisville.
Even if I am one of those people who is given a glow in the dark necklace (because it is getting close to midnight) stumbling to the finish line (let's hope that isn't the case), I will finish.
So I guess if you asked me why I do this, I would have to say because I don't know any other way of living.
And, I really want to hear those four words more than anything in the entire world.