Friday, February 21, 2014

Why Do I Do This?

It's Friday, the Friday before a race, and even though I'm not "racing" I still get all sentimental on a race weekend.

 This is where I was last year at this time

Also, we're only 6 months away from Ironman Louisville.

In 6 months and 3 days, I will be jumping into the Ohio River and starting an all day adventure. An adventure that will take me between 14 to 17 hours to complete. An adventure that not many people actually attempt, let alone finish.

Why would I want to attempt something that is going to put me in so much pain that I won't even know if I will make it to the finish line?

I know that there will be times when I question my sanity, curse myself for thinking that doing an Ironman was a good idea and want to quit. But, I won't. I won't quit, because that's not what I do.

 Somewhere out on the run course of Musselman

During our 70.3, the only time that I felt like not moving anymore in the entire 7 hours that I was out there in the unrelenting heat and sun was the last mile. The LAST mile of a 70.3 mile race. Sure, I was thinking that I was so dumb for being out there, wondering why I put myself through such pain and for what?

What do I get out of doing these kinds of things?

Quite a lot actually. The pain reminds me that I am alive. It reminds me of what I am capable of and how much work I put into what I am trying to accomplish.

 Saying hi to Miss Kiva, Sarah and Mark's dog

Even though I was in pain and could only think "one foot in front of the other" as I dumped bottle after bottle of water on myself in a feeble attempt to actually cool down during our 70.3 (all while doing horrible math to calculate how much time I had left out there), I never thought about quitting. Even though I might have been a bit dehydrated and slightly delirious toward the end (it took me a few minutes to recognize Sarah and Mark), my sights were only on that finish line.

I think the same thing will happen at Ironman Louisville.

Even if I am one of those people who is given a glow in the dark necklace (because it is getting close to midnight) stumbling to the finish line (let's hope that isn't the case), I will finish.

So I guess if you asked me why I do this, I would have to say because I don't know any other way of living.

And, I really want to hear those four words more than anything in the entire world.

13 comments:

  1. You and Mike are going to be great. Looking forward to following your training and race. It will all be worth that hard work. Good luck.

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  2. You both are going to finish!!! There is no doubt about that! You both are awesome and inspiring!!!!

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  3. Mad props to the glow necklace peeps. That's guts and glory right there. You have the will, and you will make your way!

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  4. This was such an inspirational post - I love it! I've done several marathons and halves, and one half ironman, and have always thought about the ironman .... just haven't QUITE gotten up the courage yet. Way to go!!

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  5. When we have the drive in us to race, train, go after big goals, etc, it's hard to explain to anyone who doesn't! So excited for you!

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  6. I ask that myself all the time! Big goals, big dreams, big accomplishments

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  7. Yes! You will rock this and you will conquer it because it is what you do. So excited to follow your journey!

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  8. "The pain reminds me that I am alive. It reminds me of what I am capable of and how much work I put into what I am trying to accomplish." <-- BINGO. When the pain sets in, I remind myself how strong I am and try my best to rejoice almost--that I'm doing what I love and that I have a body that's physically able to do it.

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  9. Great post, I love this. We do crazy things for sure, but it's with purpose.

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  10. I usually question my sanity during weeks of really bad workouts, but once the race gets there...ok fine around mile 21 I start thinking I'm completely insane again. I guess it's because we get so much pride from doing things we have to work so hard to achieve

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  11. I have 100% faith you'll hear those words!

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  12. I think it says a lot about your ability and stamina that of the 70.3 miles, you really only felt like giving in during the last mile. You are SO strong and I cannot wait to follow along with your IM adventures!

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  13. OMG 6 months til your Ironman!!! I'm like totally 3rd party excited. You've got this. And I can't wait to hear about your race this weekend!

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