In the weeks following that run, I ran 4.1 miles (the week I knew I was injured), 0 miles, 5.2 miles and 15.5 miles this past week.
I know that I have to come back slowly, but I am getting impatient. There are times I feel like I am never going to be back to where I was before. I think about how I ran a half marathon at 8:43 pace, and I feel like I will never do better than that. Then I think about how I ran a marathon at 9:49 pace and I feel like my dream of a sub-4 hour marathon is completely out of reach at this point.
I'm not sure when this will happen again
I know that isn't true, but this wasn't how I wanted the beginning of 2014 to go.
I am a completely competitive person, more so with myself than with others, and to see my distance and, possibly even, my time goals slipping away from me is tough. I should probably remove my pace bunny on RunningAHEAD because it is frustrating to see that based on my current mileage, I am projected to run less than 800 miles this year.
It could be worse, and thankfully I am running again. I only had the one DNS during the time that I was injured and this weekend I will get to run at the Half at the Hamptons.
I'm not going to say that I am racing, because unfortunately I will have to stop and walk here and there and take it a lot slower than I would if I had never been injured (my plan was to aim for a sub-1:50 half marathon if everything had worked out).
Luckily, I know I am strong and capable of so much more than I have already accomplished. Also, I am not jeopardizing my biggest goal to date, and maybe of my life, my Ironman in August.
Overall, I feel like I have handled this setback pretty well (there may have been a few pity parties here and there) and even though it doesn't feel like it now, I know I will be back to where I was before I became injured.
I just have to be patient, which isn't easy for me.